Merely A Passenger

There are days I am happy and joyful, full of love, kindness and a zest for life. I call friends, make plans, laugh at things because I genuinely feel happy. I wish there were more of those days. More often than not I am fighting just to get out of bed in the mornings. On days when […]

My Nightmare Affects My kinky Life

We all have nightmares don’t we? Worries about those horrible things that might happen, that could happen, and even things that are near impossibilities. Dreams of falling off a cliff or drowning in the ocean, even though we live nowhere near either of these places. These nightmares may be based on a real life fear, or they may begin […]

The Sound of Silence

Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence   Silence is golden… Suffer in silence… Silence speaks when words can’t… It is not words that kill, it is silence… Silence can break your heart… Silence […]

When The Music Goes Silent

Music has always played an important role for me and, as is my life, it can be quite eclectic. Don’t even try to pin me down. An afternoon drive from work might run the gambit of me belting out Heavy, getting emotional with a soulful Let It Be Me, or even unwinding to Pachelbel’s Canon in D Major (which happens […]

AtoZ 2016: Quit to Zonked

Qualified, quarrelsome, queasy, querulous, questioning, quiet, quirky, quivery, quizzical   That’s it, it’s time to concede defeat and throw in the towel. I QUIT! I was ill prepared then had some technical difficulties and the A to Z Challenge kicked my ass. I started off strong (as in getting the posts written and up, not necessarily strong in the […]

AtoZ 2016: Pain

PAIN, pained, painstaking, panicked, parsimonious, passionate, patient, peaceful, peculiar, perplexed, persecuted, perturbed, preserving, persistent, pessimistic, petrified, pitiful, pleasant, pleased, poised, polished, practical, praising, precarious, precise, prejudiced, preoccupied, pressured, pretty, prim, prissy, progressive, proper, proud, prudish, puzzled   Last year I posted P is for… (Pinched & Pulled) for the A to Z Challenge. Not explicitly about […]

AtoZ 2016: Overwhelmed

Obliging, obnoxious, obsessed, open, optimistic, opinionated, opposed, original, outgoing, organized, outspoken, OVERWHELMED, outraged, owned   I don’t often feel overwhelmed but there are days when simply getting out of bed seems too much. Before I had my son I would spend whole weekends in bed with the covers pulled up keeping the world out, drifting between […]

AtoZ 2016: Needy

Nagging, natural, naughty, NEEDY, nervous, nice, noisy, normal, nostalgic, numb, nutty   I hate feeling needy. It makes me feel like an incompetent child who can’t take care of herself. I’ve prided myself on being self sufficient, being able to take care of myself without needing anyone’s help. I’d always looked at neediness as a […]