When you hit the wall

Today was a day off filled with plans for a nice four day weekend ahead. An early start with a few stops before heading out on a road trip to visit friends and say good-bye to an old friend we lost earlier this year. The trip has been planned for over a month. Did I […]

My Broken Heart

Every single feeling tells me this is leading to a heart in broken little pieces and you know I need this like a hole… and I nearly forgot my broken heart Chris Cornell Many moons ago I had open heart surgery to repair a hole in my heart. I was 5 years old and remember […]

DD – Anxious

Dear Diary, I’m going to have sex tonight. I hope. If I can get out of my own way and get over these nerves. Why am I so anxious? It’s been a minute sure, but it’s not like he is someone new. He’s been my partner for the past four years. We are good and […]

DD – I’m Scared

Dear Diary, I’m scared. I’m scared I am going to die. I’m scared this damn virus is going to take me away from my son. Even after surviving it, it could still kill me. I stopped watching the news or looking for updates online. The stats are all distorted anyway so what’s the point? All […]

Food Matters

When I first saw May’s Life Matters meme I thought it was a wonderful idea. When the first month was Food Matters it seemed it was meant to be for me to participate. I was after all just starting out on my own journey towards fixing my relationship with food. Reading everyone’s stories has been […]

Healthy Food Matters

There was a time when I cooked dinner every day. Going out to a restaurant was reserved for special occasions and drive-thru’s were for a morning tea on the way to work or a quick bite while on the road travelling. Somewhere along the way that changed. I could easily say it was my kid […]

Food matters, and so do I

I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship with food lately and the many issues I have with it. Wondering how something that is meant to nourish and give us life can also be so destructive. Oh, it doesn’t start out that way of course. It starts out being a comfort, like a hug from […]

My Nightmare Affects My kinky Life

We all have nightmares don’t we? Worries about those horrible things that might happen, that could happen, and even things that are near impossibilities. Dreams of falling off a cliff or drowning in the ocean, even though we live nowhere near either of these places. These nightmares may be based on a real life fear, or they may begin […]