I could have been over him by now

I don’t know what I was thinking when I thought this month would make ending things easier. Spending more time together is making it harder. Enjoying his company, sleeping in his arms… it just made it hurt more. And it shouldn’t hurt, not now, not two years after he went off and married someone else. […]

I wish he had chosen me

I am trying to end things on a good note, with love and respect and nothing left unsaid. It’s tough though, especially when you don’t want things to end. Finding your person is hard. Finding a person you want to spend more than a fleeting moment with is hard. He’s been my person for the […]

AtoZ 2016: Quit to Zonked

Qualified, quarrelsome, queasy, querulous, questioning, quiet, quirky, quivery, quizzical   That’s it, it’s time to concede defeat and throw in the towel. I QUIT! I was ill prepared then had some technical difficulties and the A to Z Challenge kicked my ass. I started off strong (as in getting the posts written and up, not necessarily strong in the […]

AtoZ 2016: Pain

PAIN, pained, painstaking, panicked, parsimonious, passionate, patient, peaceful, peculiar, perplexed, persecuted, perturbed, preserving, persistent, pessimistic, petrified, pitiful, pleasant, pleased, poised, polished, practical, praising, precarious, precise, prejudiced, preoccupied, pressured, pretty, prim, prissy, progressive, proper, proud, prudish, puzzled   Last year I posted P is for… (Pinched & Pulled) for the A to Z Challenge. Not explicitly about […]

AtoZ 2016: Overwhelmed

Obliging, obnoxious, obsessed, open, optimistic, opinionated, opposed, original, outgoing, organized, outspoken, OVERWHELMED, outraged, owned   I don’t often feel overwhelmed but there are days when simply getting out of bed seems too much. Before I had my son I would spend whole weekends in bed with the covers pulled up keeping the world out, drifting between […]

AtoZ 2016: Needy

Nagging, natural, naughty, NEEDY, nervous, nice, noisy, normal, nostalgic, numb, nutty   I hate feeling needy. It makes me feel like an incompetent child who can’t take care of herself. I’ve prided myself on being self sufficient, being able to take care of myself without needing anyone’s help. I’d always looked at neediness as a […]

AtoZ 2016: Me, Myself

Mad, malevolent, manipulated, manipulative, mannerly,  marvelous, masculine, maternal, mature, maudlin, mean, meek,  melancholy, mellow, melodramatic, mild, mischievous, miserable, mistrustful, misunderstood, moderated, modest, moody, mortified, moved, mystical, mystified,   Some days I just don’t feel like myself. I am, of course, always myself but there are days I just feel different. Having a pen name does […]

AtoZ 2016: Leery

 Labile, laid back, lackluster, lascivious, lazy, lecherous, left-out, leisurely, LEERY, lethargic, licentious, light-hearted, likable, listless, lively, livid, logical, lonely, longing, loopy, lost, lousy, lovable, loving, low, loyal, lucky   I was going to hate on the word lascivious today but couldn’t find the statistics to back up what I thought was way too much usage of […]