Crying is Okay

I hate crying and feeling vulnerable. Both make me anxious and insecure. Unfortunately both are also a part of life, sometimes daily life. Both are also things we just have to allow on occasion. Crying is often considered a sign of weakness and paint the crier as being emotional or emotionally unstable. Well, crying for reasons […]

Masturbation: The Big Finish

I did it. Finally. After more than a week without Him, even longer of him not having me do it, I masturbated. Late the other night, or rather very early the next morning, I pulled out a couple clips and a vibrator and gave myself an orgasm. And even though I am hard pressed to […]


need / nēd verb verb: need; 3rd person present: needs; past tense: needed; past participle: needed; gerund or present participle: needing; modal verb: need 1. require (something) because it is essential or very important. “I need help now” not want to be subjected to something. “I don’t need your sarcasm” 2. expressing necessity or obligation. […]


Sometimes you just need to cry, without really knowing why. Your eyes well up, your chest tightens and your tears start. Slow at first, tentative, not sure what they are doing or why they have formed. Then they begin to flow, something in you lets go and the flood starts. Your breath catches, shallow, and your chest […]

Blossoming Buttercup

Victor peered up from behind his fork full of meat and I knew. I watched as he put the bite of food in his mouth then, in his usual precise manner, put his fork down on the napkin beside his plate. He never took his eyes off me. We were about to play, this is […]