Promises to Myself

It would seem that I am becoming less organized and productive as time goes by. This isn’t just a blogging thing, but with my life in general. I start out with great plans, or not so great plans but plans none the less, and before long the plans go out the window and I’m coasting along without direction again. I hate living life this way. It just doesn’t fee like me. It doesn’t feel right.

When the 101 Things in 1001 Days challenge came up a few years ago I thought it would be perfect for me. Not so much. You can check out my list and final update here. To say I failed the challenge would be an understatement. I did not even complete half of the items on my list. 41 out of 101 items completed, 1 event was cancelled, and 59 I failed by either not doing anything or by not completing the number of times I had said I would.

It was interesting to see that the majority of items failed, or just not completed, were items that involved me taking time for myself to get pampered and have some fun. I did manage to take an all-inclusive vacation to Cuba last year. My very first all-inclusive. That was a major item on my list that I did complete and one that was solely for me and my personal enjoyment. There were no ties to writing or blogging or parenting involved. And I must admit, it was the best time I’ve had in very a long time. I used to do a lot of travelling and I miss it tremendously.

Some items, like the 30 Days of Kink, were started but never posted. I have completed 6 out of 30 days and the posts are sitting in my drafts folder. I stated on my 101 Things page that I completed 0/30 because I didn’t post any of them. It is still a fail that I didn’t complete the whole 30 days, but I did start it and will continue until I’ve completed it. I will post here on my blog, possibly in April.

I also wrote a post at the beginning of this year on what my blogging plan was for the year, My Plan for 2015. I completed two of the four projects I had planned and started only one of the new projects, although it changed from Nosh & Nibbles to Tasty Tuesday. I decided against doing a product showcase altogether. I will share my opinion on products from time to time but I don’t want to be a reviewer. There are a ton of fantastic toy reviewers out there who write honest, and often entertaining, reviews. Ask me if you would like some referrals.

So what will 2016 bring? Honestly, I don’t know. What may be a priority today may be completely insignificant next month. Some things become less important over time and other things that weren’t even on our radar suddenly become our primary focus. Life is like that, it is in constant movement and change.

I have signed up to take a couple of writing classes in hopes of getting some of my writing mojo back and getting on track with that book I started last year. I’ve not written a single word for it in at least the last six months or more. I will never complete it at this rate and that is just not acceptable. There are also plans to start a monthly meme, a la Sinful Sunday and Wicked Wednesday, in the new year. For those of you who follow me on Twitter you may already know the name, Erotic Episodes. That is a little behind schedule at the moment due to my illness last month but will be up and running early in the new year.

On a more personal level, I’ve been evaluating my relationships and working out what I want and am willing to accept going forward. The most important of these relationships is the one I have with myself. We tend to criticize ourselves more than those around us, beat ourselves up over insignificant things, while at the same time holding others accountable to their word while allowing ourselves to renege on the promises we make to ourselves. Seeing how poorly I did with keeping the promises I made to myself over the past 1000 days, I have a lot of work to do to be better during the next 1000.




3 thoughts on “Promises to Myself

  1. i think we all make promises that we do not keep, the thing is that we keep growing and learning lessons. you are doing that so your 2015 has been a success in my book…

  2. I have definitely not kept all promises to myself and even though I have quite some for 2016, I know I will not be able to keep all of them. We tend to make more promises than we should, right?

    I definitely look forward to Erotic Episodes. Can’t wait to hear more!

    Rebel xox

  3. Best of luck on all your endeavors. I view the 1001 day thing as goals to work towards, not necessarily things that I can realistically complete within the time allotted

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