DD – No Clue

Dear Diary, I fall for men who have no time for me, ones who fit me in here and there as they wish. I even fell for one who lived in another country and wasn’t able to get him to agree to see me once in two fucking years. Not...

Choose Me

He never chose me. There was always something or someone else that came first, was a better choice somehow. He chose to move in with another woman. He chose comfortable over scary, perks over obstacles. And he chooses her over and over again just by being there. Oh he’ll...

Is Monogamy Really the Way?

I live in a world that has become set on morality, one where monogamy is the standard model for relationships. I should have one partner, one soul mate, one and only one. Why is this the normal accepted standard for us North Americans, and when did it become such? Also, why is it...

I Am Done

I am done crying over you. I am done apologizing for being upset when you don’t keep your word. I am done trying to get you to tell me what you want. I am done asking for the same things over and over. I am done being ignored for days...

Curveballs

There are obstacles. There always are of one type or another. Distance. Family. Circumstance. There is always some reason to say no, to decide that the person you long for is not the person who will be yours. Sometimes it is our own fears and insecurities. Again, things we...

We’ve All Been Broken

We’ve all been broken at one time or other in our lives. We break when our friends or relatives die. We break when relationships end, when love is lost. Sometimes we crack, little cracks over time that lead to breaking for what seems like no apparent reason. The key is what...

Still A Cherry Tree

We said no expectations. We said that D/s wasn’t the dynamic of our relationship. We said that because of distance and circumstance. It made sense. It still makes sense. What I want, what I need, doesn’t always make sense though. You know me well enough to know the difference...

W is for…

Wooing When we meet someone we are interested in pursuing a relationship with, regardless the relationship type, do we not want that person to put some effort into wooing us and getting to know us? You read that right. I said wooing. We woo, that’s what we do. We...