When will it get easier? Does it? I honestly don’t know. It takes all my willpower not to message him every day and not because it became a habit, wich it was, but because I still want to share my life with him. I want to share the funny video I saw online, tell him about my day, talk about life. We’ve known each other nearly three years and although there has been more time apart than together in those years, I never stopped thinking about him or wanting to be with him. Even though I said goodbye to him I didn’t want to. I still don’t want to but I know I needed to. And saying goodbye wasn’t a goodbye as in I am never going to talk to you again, at least I very much hope not, but I needed some distance. Odd. Needing distance from someone who already lives hundreds of miles away. I don’t know how to explain it. Maybe that’s why I didn’t say more to him then. I think he understands though. He must, right?